Summer Time Makes Me Feel Fine

Due to school and just crazy life, its hard to throw "blogging" in a time slot.
I'll try better.

It's funny what pregnancy does to your body. I lost all my baby weight but things shift, I swear my butt is smaller now but my stomach has a nice roll, anyway, when I've been ordering clothes I've sized up, and then they come and are to big. I've done it on 3 different occasions and I haven't seemed to learn that I'm still the same size I was. I love all that is a summer sale and have been taking advantage of J.Crew's clearance as well as Gap and baby Gap,Oshkosh and Carter.

ME:Elevenses Chambray Shirt{old} JCrew Shorts{sold out, Similar} Target Sandals{Here}
Baby: White Onesie{Disney} Gap Shorts{Here}

Thoughts at 3 months

As I look through pictures of these last 3 months, time seems like it slowed down. It seems like a lifetime ago when I didn't have a child. Yet, in those same pictures I wonder when did my baby get so BIG?
I know, he really isn't that old or big quite yet, but from that (kinda) small 8 lb baby to this now (at least) 13 lbs one, and those 5 pounds make a huge difference!

Nothing can prepare you for parenthood. I mean nothing. You can read all the books, observe every family, and take every class yet you will STILL not be prepared.
Truth be told I did not read any books and only took one class, a delivery one, and lets face it the delivery is the easiest part of parenthood, so I'm not going to even pretend I was somewhat prepared.
Early on I felt guilty and ungrateful. Guilty for not "loving" the whole experience of being a mother. I didn't get to go out to do the simply things, I felt dirty, I was tired, no, I was exhausted, and this baby always cried. I was isolated from the world, I didn't even get to go outside most days. Not only was I not "loving" this I actually hated this. I began to realized this was going to be SO SO much harder than I ever thought. I think women do not talk about the lonely-ness of becoming a mother. How could I be the only person on this planet to feel this way? Was I depressed, yeah, maybe I was, but I was reasonable. All babies are different, I was a colic-y baby so, God Bless my mother, I screamed bloody murder for the first 3 months of my life, its a wonder why my parents had anymore. My baby was did not have colic but he did cry a lot. He hardly slept(misconception with babies sleeping all the time) and I could never put him down, to this day he still won't sit in his swing. My husband works a lot so it was up to me to take care of this baby.
But Guess what?! I survived the first 3 months or rather he survived! He is changing at a rapid pace and I love him with my whole heart. Not to say I ever didn't, of course I did, but that goes on the back burner with just trying to keep yourself and baby alive.
He smiles and laughs and talks to me now, hey, he even lets me put him down of a minute now so I can get some things done with him awake.
With Facebook and blogs and instagram, I think people forget that these are just tid bits of peoples lives, we are not all perfect and half the time people are lying when they confess a wonderful beautiful life that they lead. It's misleading and inaccurate.  We all have struggles and whomever told you being a parent is wonderful and just kind of hard is misinforming you. I just roll my eyes at those, cause it's hard, really really hard, and I solute each and every one of you mothers and fathers out there who are honest with their struggles.

Here is my booger today, goodness I love him so. He's getting ready to crawl, I swear, what three month old crawls?

xo jess

July's Wish List

When I first found out I was pregnant last year, I was excited that I would be having him in May(summer) because I thought: great weather, we can do things outside, go fun places. That was my never-been-a-mom expertise right there for ya.
He's two and a half month old. What can you do with a baby? Hardly anything. Did I forget that I live in the Midwest? Where most of the summer is spent in the 90s, the outside is no where for a new baby to be. Then comes this child, who by the way, hates being in his carseat and/or stroller as of late, and we can go no where by ourselves. So this summer has been me sitting at home. I'll keep my expectation of this summer for next.
Many afternoons are spent wandering the interweb, which has been me into trouble(Shop-alcoholic anonymous here) and have found some favorite things that I'm lusting over.

Forever 21 Denim Flats {here}

Short-Sleeved Oxford Popover {here}

J.Crew Striped Pencil Skirt{ here}

Pineapple Pocket Collector Tee {here}

xo jess

Weekend Floral

Fitting into your new body after baby is not easy. It is beyond a struggle and even though I did not gain a lot of weight it, your body is still different after baby regardless of weight. 

I did some after baby shopping recently and purchased these fun pants from J.Crew, they are pretty comfy for my new status as a mom. 

BDG Chambray {similar} J.Crew Drawstring Floral{here}Mossimo Sandals{here}

 

xo jess

Fourth of July

Hope everyone had a safe and fun Independence Day!
We loaded up the car (Do you know how much STUFF you have to bring once you have a child?!) last Sunday and headed to Kentucky. Despite it being pretty country I do love it here.
We had a wonderful fourth, full of pool swimming, hamburg eating and horse feeding.

Me: American Eagle Shirt{similar}Dalia Collection Skirt{similar}
Baby:hat{here} Shorts {here} Onesie{similar}

xo jess

Approaching near Sanity

Whoa, I feel like these last (almost) 7 weeks have been the longest of my life, yet the shortest. I'm not sure if they ever tell you how hard it is to have a newborn, but I believe I will enjoy these next few weeks,months, years much more.
I promise I'll be back with outfit post soon, but getting into the grove of spit-up, easy access shirts to nurse and fitting into my new body adjustments hasn't come easy.
Things I've learned thus far:
1) Babies are hard, like really really hard. Prop goes to all the mothers out there, why did no one ever tell me HOW hard it was.
2) You really do not need that much sleep.
3) You can sleep in the most ridiculous positions.
4) Pacifiers are your best friend.
5) Gray shirts are not.
6) Going anywhere is not simple.
7) Sometimes you miss meals.
8) When your baby smiles for the first time it has to be one of the best feelings in the world.

This was when he was two weeks old. I still wasn't feeling myself and I fell in love with these dresses. So comfy!

I literally bought all the colors. 

Merona Knit T-shirt Dress {here} Mossimo Tipper Sandal Target {here} ( I also got these in white)

xo jess

Maternity Photos

I was lucky to find a ex co-worker to do some of my maternity photos, she does this on the side so she was not to terribly expensive. We were happy with the shoot and the way they turned out!

And then a daily dose of cuteness
This little guy is 5 weeks old today!!

xo jess